2015 March 29th

Today I almost had my first OOBE. When I woke up by the morning, I tried to stay montionless and with my eyes closed, just like I read yesterday (one of the methods to induce sleep paralysis). Being honest, it was pretty hard, as I moved myself in bed even before thinking about moving, but I kept trying.

I had planned to get to the sleep paralysis state layed down on my back, but to avoid moving myself more than I had already moved, I changed my position and decided to lay down on my front.

I can't tell how it happened, it feels like I fall asleep and woke up immediatelly after, but I woke up in the paralysed state. I have never been on a sleep paralysis before, however, I didn't explore this state as I knew what I wanted to do. As soon as I realized my state (concious, but with the body sleeping), I tried to leave my body. It worked!

I was laying on my front, so I used my arms as a support to raise my head and trunk. I felt a vibration, but it was extremely comfortable (I can't tell whether I felt that vibration on the whole body or just on head, arms and trunk).

As I moved my arms, head and trunk, knowing I was not moving my physical body (even though it felt the same, except for the vibration) I realized I had achieved my goal. I felt very excitted for achieving it and for seeing for myself it was something real, with that excitment, I just thought "I made it!!". However, that thought was enough to send me back to my body.

I haven't even left my body completely (as I haven't moved my legs yet) and I was sent back to it already. That's why I say that I almost had my first experience.

I'm not frustrated, though! I'm gad could I make it and eager to try it again.

P.S.: when the experience was happening and right after it, I was 100% sure it was not a dream. But the more time passed, more I started to doubt it. However, writing about the experience here made me remember it better and be sure it was not a dream. I also remember having some clarity of mind and control about my actions I don't have when sleeping. For example, I thought about leaving my body by visualizing a rope and climbing it, but as I was laying on my front I realized it wouldn't work and used my arms instead.

Before I start - An Introduction to this Journal

This is a journal (actually, the mirror of my physical journal) on out-of-body experiences (OOBE) and Astral Projections (AP).

Recently I started reading about OOBE (out-of-body experiences) and AP (Astral Projection). After some reading, I decided to start my own journey on this matter. (The book that influenced me the most so far was Adventures Beyond the Body, by William Buhlman)

All that is written here are my experiences. There won't be a single fictional word. Sure, you don't have to believe in everything, but this is my report on my experiences. (I write this warning because I think from all the things I wrote so far, this is possibly the most 'useful' one. I always wrote for myself, to express myself, but maybe this journal is the first time I'm writing something that can be helpful for someone else)

Previous experiences

On 2014 October 14th I had my first out-of-body experience (or at least the first OOBE I remember, since some people say we have an OOBE everytime we go to sleep). The experience happened on a small local spiritualist church. I was there by invitation of a friend (who visited the church for the first time with me, but he had some experience n another churches) that had been talking to me about ayahuasca brew for some time. I made my research on this subject and decided to try the brew for myself.

The experience was pretty complex and hard to put into words. For this reason, I'll go straight to the OOBE part, instead of trying to describe all that happened that day.

As soon as the effect started, I felt my body going numb. I moved my arms (I had no idea I was really moving them, it felt like it was happening only i n my head, until I touched a chair that was near me and realized I was moving my arms) slowly but the sensation I had was that many movements existed in that one movement. Sometimes I moved my torso and at the same time it would go to a direction, it would also go in the opposite direction and also stay still (I have no idea in what direction my torso was going in "reality", if it moved at all).

After that initial phase, I felt like I was thrown into a flow, a channel, a tunnel. I can't describe it very well, but it was clear to me it was some kind of vehicle for my spirit (soul? I'm not sure of the difference, to be honest). The velocity of that flow was extremely fast. At that moment I didn't felt my body at all and was aware that experience was happening in a spiritual plane on only in my mind (as I was very skpetical by that time, I prefered this last option).

At some point, the flow changed (or at least my reading of it changed). I didn't see it as something new and indescribable anymore, but as a river. Sometimes I felt I was inside that river. Sometimes I felt I was the river, always running, hitting rocks on its(my) way but never stopping.

A very similar (in the sense I felt as something not-human) thing happened when I felt like a cactus. My body (and now I was more aware of my body, but not completely) would do some movements and then get hard and I would feel like a cactus (I'm aware of how "feel like a cactus" seems to be stupid. But well, that's it, I'm reporting the experience I had and it was honestly something hard to describe with words). However, when my body got hard it was an extremely pleasant sensation. And as soon as it was hard, I would be "in the cactus place".

After those experiences (I have no idea how many time after) I came back to my body (I could say "I started to feel my body again", but the sensation is really that you left it). As I was somehow scared by the noelty of leaving my body and having such weirds, indescribable and new experiences, I "hold" to my body as much as I could, scared of leaving it again. I regret this decision a little. But being on my body was also good, as I started to develop a sense of love for it and to realize how good it is to have one. I just felt grateful for having a body and promised to take more care of it. (This part could be out of this report, but well, it was very meaningful to me and it is always good to remember that sensation)

Post-Ayahuasca

Some smaller things

The experience I tell above was the only experience with ayhuasca brew/DMT I had so far (2015 March 29th).

After that experience, some different things started to happen with me, like remnants of DMT (that's how I saw it for some time untill recently, as I looked to everything with skepticism but tha is starting to change). While meditating or on a deep relaxed state, I would start to see white lights that move quickly (and I would, somehow, try to follow them). Just for the record, I saw those lights A LOT while on ayahuasca.

Besides that, another thing that I started to feel is that when I'm deep relaxed or motionless, with my eyes closed, I can do small movements (generally with my head or hands/arms) where I feel like I'm moving my spirit instead of moving my body. When I open my eyes, I would realize I indeed felt my body, but nevertheless the little experience would always feel good.

I don't think those are that special things, I think they are pretty normal. But somehow I think they are related to OOBE and thought it would be good to mention them here (also, they only started after drinking ayahuasca, so I think it kind of fits here).

Attempting OOBE

This week, on the day 27th (March, 2015), I was home alone and layed down to take a nap while self-affirming "I am now out of body" (the author of Adevntures Beyond the Body does that and I tried to copy his techniques). At a moment, when I was about to fall asleep, those white lights appeared and I tried to follow them, but I ended up waking myself up.

I have tried the same (doing self-affirmations) before, while going to sleep at night, but without anything different happening.

Trying to get my first OOBE

Why first?

Even though the experience with ayahuasca felt literraly like leaving my body, I won't count it as my first OOBE because it was both drug induced and because I had no control over it.

All reports I've read on OOBE, the person having an OOBE always have some kind of control. He has control over his actions and even oh the environment he is, depending on his level of control on his own mind (mindfulness). While for me, my experience with ayahusca felt much more like I was being guided, instead of freely exploring the situation and environment.

Methods

Yesterday (2015 March 28th) I read for the first time bbout the methods to achieve an OOBE. Before that, the only method I knew was the one of the self-affirmations when going to sleep, but even this metho was not very clear, as the author of Adventures Beyond the Body said he used to method, but didn't give any details.

The method I read yesterday was about first achieving a sleep paralysis state and once on that state simply living the body. I'll be using the method for now. If I find another methods, I'll write them here.